14 February 200911:40 PM
Back up, baby back up.
its not as easy as i thought,but its nicer to see him and smile,
than to roll my eyes and get so uptight about it,
Syafiq's happy now,
i guess i should be too.
Life is a bitch. haha. I noticed that a long time ago. I also knew that secrets are meant to be kept. and i find it no use to mention the WHOLE subject but use no names. So from now on, I'll tell people straight in their faces and not vent in bloggies. I shall vent, to certain people. but when i vent, the feeling is temporary. ok bleh.
and it rains in your bedroom
and everything is wrong.
it rains when your here,
and it rains when your gone.
and i stare at the phone,
he still hasn't called,
and you feel so low,
you can't feel nothing at all.
I find that paragraph sooo true. That is E X A C T L Y how i feel right now. ugh, lets move on.
I had riding yesterday and today. =D i stayed at the lodge. weet weet! so awesome. I did jumping on rocky. OH GOD i swear it was soooooo scary. but it was fun, but it was freaky but it was so cool but rocky went so fast, but i enjoyed it, but it was scary. ok. Vivy love is fineee. looking like a warmblood yaw! It was valentines weekend there. hee hee, fun fun fun. The chocolates were heartshaped and the brownies were SUPER fudgy. Too bad there weren't ANY cute guys. UGH. lololol. I got red red rose, from Mr Senett. -.- ahhaha. better than nothing!
Next week I ain't going drama. I've gotta go to SSI's thingy. =D LUV LUV! ahhaah -..- So yeah, warninggg. And I'm gonna see Jasmine and Caroline and Jiew Ann, OMG so many people will be thereeeeee. yippieeeeee.
Ok, lets talk about me going to KL. I'm kinda excited about it. I sooo don't wanna leave JB and SG. I get two awesome flavors in one. who could ask for more?? But I also am super psyched about going to KL. I just LOVE bukit kiara. Alia is there, Adib is there. OOH! ahaha. alot of things are going on there. I might re-amp my modeling yo! haha -.- oh my, not to mention eness, like my bestfriend since baby-hood. haha. gosh, choices choices. well, not that i can chose to go to KL or not. gawd.
SYF SYF. Well, I AM Yan Li. I AM one of the leads. and I AM offered to do something big during the SYF period. GOD. I so totaly need the dates man.
I'm gonna go make a new video clip now. weet!
ciao babeh.
xx