Hello,

Isn't the new skin so refreshing;

You can barely tell the difference if I'm happy or sad; 

It's like a super cool mirror that lets you see what you want to see;

What you want to believe;

Because when it comes down to it;

We're humans, and we make mistakes;

Stupid,clever mistakes.

Oxymoron.

But hey, the stupid mistakes are what makes us clever;

We're only human.

Today school was seriously funny okay. It all started in the morning, where I was so hyper. Oh yea, Congrats to;

For getting nominated for Head C. You guys are very lucky. All that hard work payed off. Oh wellies! Though some others deserved the posts too, if Miss Ang wants to play the game her way, OH WELL.

Malay class was FUNNY OK. SUPER DUPER DUPER FUNNY, it consisted, Su-haila. (not the HC) and Nana. both very erm, "interesting women" lawl. Nis please laugh at the last statement. And I was drawing on my leg, and cikgu scolded Nis cuz of idk what, so yeah.

Was texting a certain someone the whole day, and my battery was alrd half before recess, like -.-!

MATHS. I so hate maths today okay, I didn't need her stupid remarks. If i am slow, SO WHAT LA? walau. I actually paid full attention, cuz I was so freaking confused, the squares that belonged to the variables but the numbers already squared, like HUH?

After school was fun and saddening. First went to cwp with Nis, met Haikal there, then we go makan at Mac, he had to leave cuz of mom thingys. So nis and I went to buy earrings, and when we were passing shops, I could not find anything that can replace my band that can break any second ok. Its sooooo depressing =( haih, but she got her earrings an we took 178 back to school and it seriously reminded me of Burung ok. ;D So yeah, went to school and did homework in canteen. yay!

Went to Quadrangle to chill with the band members, Oh ya;

It might not be GwH but its still good. =) So yeah, went up to lvl 4 and Lavania was looking for me, and we played hide and seek. LOL, it was sooo funny ok, she went up and down, and we were like running around. Recon baybeh. HAHA. Yeh, and I went home at 6-ish with Nis and Ashraf my lil junior cuz lavania emo. boohoo.

xx

Hello people

KL was kinda fun

I'm already missing Eda,Jim,Adib and everyone ok

haih.

I"M HOME LIKE FINALLY OK.

xx

Alright, back to basics,

Yes I am in love/out of love.

And now things have gotten worse I guess.

I made a BIG mistake yesterday and on Monday I think.

okay, no if I only did either one, its okay.

BUT I DID BOTH.

URGHLDAHSDBCAHDBFKHBSVCAKHFBCVKAFEBV.

two no mistakes come together and become the worst thing in my life.

ARGH.

Four lines, made my whole perspective change;

And then it got me thinking, what if that person still has my heart? Cuz, when someone breaks something, if they reaaaaaaaaly sayang it, they would like, put it back together and keep it right? And if they're keeping it, I could only be in love with THAT person ONLY. right? Cuz when it comes down to it, maybe that person didn't mean to break it. Maybe it was by accident?OH THE LOVE OF KNOWING.

VAL! NOW I KNOW WHY P.S IS LIKE THAT! =DDD

My holidays are very boring. I swear. I finished Chem and Geo alrd. Only left with Lit and MT. Geo is mainly the ppt. GAH. boring boring. I'm going to KL in an hour. Bringing my hwk. LIKE DUH ok. damnit. I'm talking to Nis about calamine lotion?? HAHAHA. I'm supposed to go to Niloo's school tomorrow you know! SAS! BUT I"M IN KL. URGH. ok no, GOING TO KL SOON. ARGHHH. BLABLABLA. I'm so hyperly-depressed. gah. Oh yea, did you know, I'm going crooked. ;)

I look like a panda seriously.

UGH, I don't know how I'm gonna survive my "intensive training" with Nat

at the rate I'm going, I'll die lah.

Sheesh.

Do you sometimes wonder, 

if that someone REAAALY means what they say,

like, "oh, i want you to come, but cuz of your asthma i didn't invite you cuz i KNOW it's bad for you"

Like, do you believe them? or take it as an excuse for not inviting you?

Like, " I love you but, I'm not good for you"

Or, "I want you so bad, but I don't deserve you"

OR any other cheesy lines that people use.

well oh well,

maybe its just the sign of, "YOU SHOULD MOVE ON SWEETIE!"

lawl.

Bro is playing Halo 3. so annyoing.

Today will be a super duper boring day, i swear.

At the rate I'm going I will have to do my homework to kill time.

HUAHUA.

I keep trying to send Miss Tan the Speech Day thing.

But there's this stupid mail-daemon  or wdv telling me its not sent like,

wtfish.

you know, I had rashes for a whole week on my already ugly legs.

its finally gone. YAY.

come on, cheer with me, YAY!

Nat, i DID use Calamine Lotion ok.

I wanna eat hersheys kisses. 

soo craving for choco man.

UGH.

Oh yes, I need mascara and eyeliner.

Seriously lah, I'm out of it and mommeh will slap me if I use hers.

pfft.

like, after having to chase it for so long.

Althou there are consequences, its still the truth.

And then you figure out that as long as you KNOW your love is returned,

it doesn't matter the position you guys are in.

Its like the song My Boo, is it not?

"There's always one person that will always have your heart,

....

You will always be my boo

...

It started when we were younger you were mine,

Now another brother's taken over but its still in your eyes,

Eventhough we used to argue, its alright."

the rest is even more true. 

wow. awesomeee.

I shall not dwell.

alright, an update, because i found out people actually DO read my blog. WOW. I am going to make up for ALL the things I've done, as promised and I will do my homework everytime. I shall go to the gym every other day to train up on my stamina and stuff, because I am fat and lazy. (HA HA) I shall start going out with a cute,rich american guy ( WHAT THE HELL ) and i shall be nice and friendly to everyone. This is because of karma. And i believe in karma. Woot.

I can't wait for the 31st, the BI catwalk will be awesomeeee. I need riding boots. URGENTLY. Vivy baby is being such an awesome little baby. I feel like saying WOW to everything. I'm so upbeat now. oh well, I'm free for the whole holidays. So i need plans. Faster book me! Everyone is booked except me, like how can this happen? HAHAH lawl. So life is awesome right now. Although I'm not like, with anyone or anything I'm in love and loved i guess. Cool right? hehehahahuhu. -.- ok, ali, stop it sia. I PROMISE JOYCE AND MAE I WONT SWEAR ANYMORE. haha weeee~ I feel so nice suddenly. ok ok so toodels lah! I wanna mandi and go out for dinner. I'm gonna look like Maryln Monroe with a white dress that will fly when i walk like a model past a vent in NYC. fat hopes man.

ciao

xx

Syabooyah Sya- Sya- Syabooyah Role Call,

We are from 2A,

yeah,

We cheered the loudest,

yeah,

And hell we won this,

yeah,

Cuz you couldn't bring it on,

Syabooyah Sya- Sya- Syabooyah break it down now!

I love you cheer people.

Champion class is such a good rep.

woots!

xx

And this group of friends is our little gang, our haven, our life. 

its where we complain about stuff and they listen and vice versa. it were days when we feel so complete and loved. Everyone in the gang is submissve and dominant when needed. And there's a slight, almost unrealizable, heiracy in the group and we all know it. Thanks to that person the group is still together. And that is the "leader" in a way. The alpha wolf. In the gang that person doesn't have any better rights but its an informal choice as everyone accepts their decisions without moaning or force and they feel as superior as that informal leader. And that gang can't be called a clique cuz we hang out with other people too and put them first sometimes. It's a very flexible thing. Outings we're all in it together. We've got our bestfriends in the group and out and no one frets about it. We support each other unconditionally. And the whole group gets in trouble and the whole group is famous and popular cuz we're a group. A small society that anyone can come in but when they go out, we ask why. A group that leaves no one out. No favouritisme or anything. Its a fair group because everybody knows how important everybody is. We don't fight, we just tell them in the face. There are no rules or anything. We all squeal when we see someones crush or boyfriend. We share excitement and get influenced, willingly. And we all love each other to the death. And we KNOW it isn't a one sided love because we know how important they are to us and we'd die if they aren't there. Cuz its not only you calling them, and its not only you putting them first. They come to you too not just you come to them. They feel your pain too. That gang, that haven was the reason you went to school, was the reason you pick up the phone, was the reason you'll talk to them about anything.

Ok, i know big groups are hard to keep. But what about best friends? They should be the person who always puts you first and you put them first. but why why why do people just SAY stuff. "i'm you best friend" and then hangs out with someone else more. its R U B B I S H.

The being happy thing, yeah.

1) People find it annoying when someone is happy all the time. us humans seriously have jealousy and tolerance problems.

2) I learnt that I can be happy about anything, when something bad happens, try to think about the good stuff that could happen after.

3) When your so busy being happy, those "big" problems and people you cant get over never cross your mind.

4) When your happy, you don't feel un-loved or low self esteem because your sorta being who you are and embracing it. You enjoy it, so peoples thoughts don't matter.

5) You sorta pass the happiness. When someone is down, and your all happy, you go to them with a smile on your face and tell them to cheer up. Be understanding, don't pity them, and tell them the happy stuff. Cuz when your happy, you think happy.

I promised myself I'll be happy today.

I am still VERY happy.

I promised it.

I'll have to be smiling in my sleep.

Because I'm happy.

Alot of shit happened today.

But i was very happy despite that.

I reminded myself that its just a game,

And i gotta have fun while playing the game.

I forced myself to enjoy the silly moments and laugh along to what i'd have screamed at.

I saw people that i usually do the "Hey!...bitch" thing and said "hey (minus) bitch."

I felt so nice.

I was still smiling when he was watching me from the second floor,

I didn't even notice until sheila was like "shaaaaaboyah",

I was still happy when I was forced to be the proposition,

I was still happy when the guys at stall 3 irritated me by cutting ques,

I was still smiling when we did the particle thingy,

I was still happy when Mr Yiu did the "stead, temptation and something" talk,

even though it stabbed me a lil,

But i was truly super happy when i chilled with Nat and Syl.

Nat, our ah lian joke.

shhh!

And although I was kinda sad that I had to leave,

I was STILL happy that I'll be seeing someone else at customs.

I saw Nazri at interchange and i was happy,

I saw Fara at customs and i was happy.

I was STILL happy when the que was bloody long,

I was STILL smiling although i didn't see my "anak kambing" lol.

I was STILL happy when my mom lectured me.

I was STILL happy when Dutchess tried to give me rabies.

I am STILL happy although i am very tired.

I'm so proud of myself.

So yeah, I'm going to sleep today with a smile.

I'll be happy TODAY. =D

I promised.

xx

muaxcks

Feelings up and down, moodswings

In and out of love and confusion

But the climax finally came, and I'm so damn happy to say:

I find it cool, how one thing in my life could surpass everything

Like, when you do that thing, nothing else mattered

And when you do that thing, no matter how tiring or troublesome it is, you'll just do it

Because you LOVE it, as in L-O-V-E like passion.

Wordsinpictures;

I took a ton of pictures, for everything. but i'm too lazy to update about it all,

urgh.

but I'm so over syafiq and life goes on. =)

And I miss my babyboo!

xx

ciao honeyh!