07 March 20098:29 PM
empty
I'm sure all of us had those days where we would get a million text messages and phone calls. Days where we would always have something going on. When we go to school a billion people say hi as we make our way to our "spot" in the hall where no one else sits except us and surrounding is our group of friends.
And this group of friends is our little gang, our haven, our life.
its where we complain about stuff and they listen and vice versa. it were days when we feel so complete and loved. Everyone in the gang is submissve and dominant when needed. And there's a slight, almost unrealizable, heiracy in the group and we all know it. Thanks to that person the group is still together. And that is the "leader" in a way. The alpha wolf. In the gang that person doesn't have any better rights but its an informal choice as everyone accepts their decisions without moaning or force and they feel as superior as that informal leader. And that gang can't be called a clique cuz we hang out with other people too and put them first sometimes. It's a very flexible thing. Outings we're all in it together. We've got our bestfriends in the group and out and no one frets about it. We support each other unconditionally. And the whole group gets in trouble and the whole group is famous and popular cuz we're a group. A small society that anyone can come in but when they go out, we ask why. A group that leaves no one out. No favouritisme or anything. Its a fair group because everybody knows how important everybody is. We don't fight, we just tell them in the face. There are no rules or anything. We all squeal when we see someones crush or boyfriend. We share excitement and get influenced, willingly. And we all love each other to the death. And we KNOW it isn't a one sided love because we know how important they are to us and we'd die if they aren't there. Cuz its not only you calling them, and its not only you putting them first. They come to you too not just you come to them. They feel your pain too. That gang, that haven was the reason you went to school, was the reason you pick up the phone, was the reason you'll talk to them about anything.
and i miss my lil gang
sometimes i wonder if they miss me too
because they don't seem to be trying to keep a tie.
Ok, i know big groups are hard to keep. But what about best friends? They should be the person who always puts you first and you put them first. but why why why do people just SAY stuff. "i'm you best friend" and then hangs out with someone else more. its R U B B I S H.
This is the closest colour i could find to the 07' prefects uniform.
I so miss convent days
Where we're just us and no one elses' opinions mattered.
I so miss feeling loved.
Cuz now i feel like everyone's just talking to me cuz i'm a pity case.
When they say i miss you too, its just to be polite.
Yeah, maybe I've changed, but you've changed too.
The difference is I accept that.
So what if i'm a lil outdated on the details,
So what if it's a "convent thing".
once a convent girl, always a convent girl.
Its not that I don't like my life in Singapore,
I do, very much.
But do you expect me to throw away the better stuff?
high school sucks.
seriously
xx