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RajaAliciaBintiRajaAmin
Nis calls me Ali, Almost everyone calls me Aly, Alicia is fine too :D
If i told you I was a lil bit of German, a lil bit Chinese and a lil more of Malay, would you still love me?
06061995-now
do your calculations :)
I'm a gemini as you can see, and I like my life like this, not that
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I love my baldi too, veryvery much.
I'm into nice people, and i think guys look better with broad shoulders :O.
I'm also very attracted to shy guys. WOW
Personality over looks.
but looks is always a bonus!
I don't like being in love unless i really have to.
Don't say ily, cuz i get scared ;D
well hanisah is an exception
Single? Me? Heee!
I am very spoilt. Dad gets me whatever I want, most of the time.
Despite so, I try my best to be grounded and accept that not everything goes my way.
But I never fail to try and make my way :P
hey, who wouldn't?
I don't smoke, and don't intend too
I loathe poseurs, because they really don't know what they're talking about
I don't enjoy swimming and soccer, mainly because I can't kick the ball properly and I've had forced lessons :O
I'm pretty petrified of household insects and rats.
Oh, but i'm amazed by snakes and lizards :D.
I love singing, dancing and going nuts.
Playing in the rain is the best.
I showjump and do dressage pretty well :D
I enjoy acting up on stage, where the lights and eyes are all on me. Drama :P
I like the feeling of ecstaticism everytime I see a cute boy :)
I'm such a typical girl, haha!
hotmail ; missalicialy@hotmail.com
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auf wiedersen,
xx
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18 May 20094:56 AM
changed feelings.
I wrote a whole story here, and just got so irritated, that i'm deleting it. I've lost my mood to blog.BYE.
17 May 200912:12 AM
Stereotypes.
Don't talk to me about emo. Its so sick lah. Emo is a short for emotional. Emo isn't a stereotype. Just cuz someone has black hair, doesn't mean they're emo. Just cuz someone wears alot of eyeliner doesn't mean their emo. Just cuz someone listens to "emo" music like Mayday Parade, doesn't make them emo. Just cuz someone cuts themselves, it really really doesn't make them emo. Someone who is depressed and insecure who will cry at the most sensitive of issues, is an emo-tional person. Not an emo. The only emo's out there are the ones who put pictures of themselves on the net calling themselves emo. Just cuz one bitch is a scene kid who claims to be emo, doesn't make all those who have black hair, tons of eyeliner or those who slit their wrists "emo" Also, don't talk to me about people changing sexuality due to trends. Also don't talk to me about how sick it is. Cuz its not. How would you feel if all your life the opposite sex just always takes advantage of you? That they never satisfy you emotionally/sexually (its a fact) or keep trying to get you for something else other than you. You will OBVIOUSLY get frustrated. And OBVIOUSLY hate the whole kind of that gender and trust yourself in your own kind. Its about personal preferences and situations. Not about trends. No need to go around saying ew. Its not about desperate either. MAYBE sometimes it is. But only sometimes.
I can't stand stereotypes.
Cuz it can change your perception on someone.
If i start wearing thick eyeliner, and you call me emo,
won't that make people think i am?
Its stupid. Its annoying.
xx
16 May 20095:52 PM
sleepy ==zzzz
I am groggy and tired and can barely open my eyes. Am supposed to be asleep or riding but i miss my boyfriend soso much lah please. And its too early. I only slept at 2.30 cuz ulut came over till one for a looooong chat. Yeah... Currently waiting for Danial to get out of the shower. URGH i miss him. ALOT. Dyinggggggg.Managed to go out yesterday. Got my stuff, not clothes though. But ended up fighting with parents. Mom lost all hope in me, dad trying to prove me wrong. Fuck my parents. Fuck my family. This is so fucking fucked up.
You see, right now the internet is off, and i'm just typing and waiting for it to be turned on again. Because for fuck-sake, its a fucking Sunday, theres no fucking thing to do on a fucking day like this except go online, read a book, or play sports.
Online; Mom took modem =.=
Reading?; Out of books
Play Sports; Its too fucking hot.
Urgh. I have to stop swearing. This sucks. GAH!
Started post at 9.15, internet off-ed at 9.20. Argue with mom till 10, Told dad mom is being such a pain in the ass at 10.30, they argued till now. I hate my mom.
xx
Danial, I hate this "holiday"
I wanna go back to school!
2:50 AM
I wanna go out.
I wanna go out.
My boyfriend is out with thomas and gang.
Danial, I hate you.
*jealously*
URGH bloody hell. I'm in such a freaking bad mood now.
I NEED TO GO OUT FOR FREAKS SAKE.
ARGHSDKJBKSB.
=.=
xx
15 May 20098:47 PM
I NEED TO SHOP!
come online. sooner or later puh-leseee!
So bored. So bored.
xx
5:51 AM
heho!
Exams are over, like finally please! whoo~ Still high on so manymany things. But i CAN type a decent paragraph or two about today. ;DDon't you just hate it, when people who usually tell you everything suddenly just tell you somethings and not everything. Its freaking frustrating.
Thomas loved his birthday pressie! I could tell from the look on his face when he saw it in the plastic bag ;D Followed by a scream. hahaha! Today was last paper ok. I lost 16 marks cuz i didn't know how to do and didn't have the time to :( Ah wells, its over. thats all that matters.
Off to CWP with Nat,Syl and ValVal. XD hee! I LOVE CALAMINE LOTION AND BETADINE! =D ahahahahahahah life savers. Went to eat pizza with Nat and Syl after Val had to ciao. We talked about ghosts? haha LMAO. Hawaiian pizza with alotalot of pharmesan cheese is awesomeee heho! SORRY NAT FOR THE GORE. I SHALL NEVER OPEN MY GORSE IN FRONT OF YOU EVER AGAIN. heho! I totally ditched Josh. HAHA -.- Faris wanted to chill. So, Nat, Faris and I were off to Starbucks. hehe! Had our Datin-Datin convey, haha! lols. Faris wanted to see my baby, who was busy playing badminton at Marsiling CC. =.= BAIK PERRR.
at 2, walked arnd with Nat for about 30mins, looking for Bangpires' pressie and card. Which we found ;D hahaha. then at 2.30 off to find my babylove. heheheheh! Cutie!! He was with his clique. As usual, ahah! awesome people. Alot of talking that involved bodyparts. LOL. halfway through the day, was pure bliss i tell you. whooo~ so high man. Like a drug. oh em geee! Its nice to know that the simple things you give, is like him giving me his world. :)
"L... is for the way you look, at mee" *with supersexy voice* MILZ, DIAN IF YOUR READING THIS, PLEASE IMAGINE AND LAUGH. ;D
heho! I wanna stock up on hoodies and long sleeves! Urgh, need to shop. NEED. TO. SHOP. =.=
I'm out of alot of stuff. Shampoo, Body Soap, Facial Wash, Acne cream, Moisturizer, and a hella lot more =.= I need to go out. I need to shop for my stuff. I NEED to leave the house sia. I NEED MY STUFF. STEWPID STEWPID. GAH.
I still hate Maths. I did okay for paper 1, and screwed up for paper 2.
I love my boyfriend alot ok. He helped me with my maths, and I'm VERY thankful for that, so baby, I just wanna say thanks for being such awesome support. You've helped me in maths alot and I just HAVE to give you a big hug for that. If i PASS my Maths this term, I swear, I will give you a hug. Aside from maths, thanks soo much for support on that issue of mine. Although sometimes i did it cause of you, you were there for me to lean on, and that is seriously something i needed. I love you, alot.
Also, MGY is awesome. Though other little, minor (yes val, my left arm is minor,) stuff came up. HOHO.
I am at the point, where i'm so high, so happy and not afraid to say;
I'm HIS girl ;D
shalalala! heho!
xx
ciaoxz people.
ilovemyboyfriend.
5:20 AM
FREEDOM!!!!!
I hearby declare,
TOTAL FREEDOM FROM EXAMS.
for a few weeks. ha!
WHOOOO~~ exams are over. Today was awesome. Super awesome.
yes baby, you are warm.
VERY warm.
and i just love you to bits.
come back online lah! =.=
HEHOHEHO! I'm highhhh. I love calamine lotion ;D hahahahahahha and betadine! and gorses! hahahahahahhaha =.= high now. expect a proper post later/tmr ;D
xx
NO EXAMS.
WOOT!
14 May 20096:12 AM
Guilt.
I want to,
I need to,
But you make me feel so bad doing so.
The cold shiny metal on my skin.
The crimson red water slowly escaping.
Its all a sin.
A pleasurable sin.
Its not easy letting go of this.
It never will be.
I love you.
But I love the scars because of you too.
I know i'm a bitch to do so.
But its not that easy.
I am guilty.
But its just so hard.
xx
1:18 AM
Thomas;
Happy birthday my dear bitch/niece,
May god bless you.
May the sky not fall on you,
May all the bruises i gave you heal faster.
I don't care if you swap dates with her,
14th of May is your day,
for all i care....
So enjoy being 15.
(WOW YOUR SO OLD!)
Because your not 14 like me! :P
(hehehoho!)
I'll explain to you why pur-pur ca-re rater. hahaha =.=
Eh! tmr the box of .......... HAHA! better come early. ;D
Heho! excited.
Class blog is damn cute i tell you. Love it soso much. heho! btw, happy birthday thomas, again. My lil bitch/niece. hehe. MGY sempat seyh. " *cough*danial*cough*" i mean whats that all about? Why have to cough about Danial?? haha. tsk, immaature ;X
Watching Angels and Demons with Sylvia and pepos tmr hopefully. Josh offered, but hey. I'm booked ;D good news for baby. HAHA. what a fucker i am.
Today's paper was pure shit. Worst case scenario is that i lose 13 marks. Best case is that I lose only 5 out of 50. hohohehehaha! =.=
After Physics causeway-ed with Sylv. We ended up talking about that asshole. eyerrr wasting time sia. Walk walk, talk cock. I followed Laura for a lil while, then off on my own to look for Thomas's and Aryl's presents. ;D I suck at birthday shopping. Thought of getting him a shirt, dogtags.... a notebook? haha! Found something suitable with the help of baby and gang ;D thankiewsss! My lovelorn-ing partner is so cute. hahaha. stop molesting my boyfriend can...?
Wells, back to story. Was with Baby and evryone outside Xcraft waiting for Aryl's taggies to be done, and saw chihao. My teddy bear! ;D He told me about the whole accusation for stealing story. haha he's got 12 bands like me, but split between two ppl. heho! I'm an inspiration ;D haha. kay, right. So all the guys were like, "eyy you chee how the head councillor right" *laugh*laugh* so mean :( haha then I was like, "eh! don't kacau my teddybear!" then i WANTED to give him a hug. HAHA but somebody was already SOOO jealous. i could see this green substance in his eyes. ;) haha paham paham lah Dan. funfun day. ;D got all my pressies and cards. can't wait for tmr. heho!
This is so stupid, I saw him just 3 hours ago, and i miss my baby alot ok. Stewpid shayt. Haha! your eyes, still melt me, still make me want to be yours...
xx
hehehahahoho!
sugarhigh.
13 May 20095:33 AM
I'm leaving you...
I'm leaving you
I'm not sure if that’s what I should do
It hurts so bad
I'm wanting you but can't go back
Trying to find, to find
That all elusive piece of mind
Stuck here somehow
Shrouded beneath my fear
And now I don’t need it
Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love
And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting for
The droplets, droplets
You left a mark
I wear it proudly on my chest
Above my heart Above my heart
To Remind me that I feel the best
When I'm with you When I'm with you
To me everything is effortless
You know it's true
My eyes are painted with regret and I don’t need it
Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love
And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting to fall and sink into your tears
You both are like the raindrops, the raindrops falling down on me
You left a mark you left a mark
He left a mark you left
He left you left
And I don’t I don’t
Need it. Need it
if you guys are smart enough, you'll know who you are :)
xx
so similar, maybe thats why.
1:20 AM
Eat you up.
CHEM WAS A FAILUREEEE!!boohoo :(
I want physics marks to be high so it can keep an A for me.
Boo Chem.
Boo maths.
Boo DnT.
Stewpid.
Todayy was awesomeeeeeee!
Okay, all the drama started this morning. heho! So anyways, I got this guy, Josh, no not my instructor Josh, his number. Like he's cute and everything ;D green eyes! So anyways, I was texting him. At like, 5.30? he texted me something really cute. I was like awww. And we kept texting till i met baby, (heho!) wells, even after. someone seemed jealous. Hehehe, ah wells. Boys. Managed to study a lil chemistry. Next time before exams must meet up with Josh for chem ;D Chemistry exam was a bigbig boo. :( went to causeway with Valval and Nat. heho! Bought bubble tea. Met Sylvia, Laura and Devika. And some bitch sneezed on my neck and sylvia's ear. so disgusting. We all were like "swine fluu" haha =.= what a day, what a day.
Went to send Valval back, and then off to library to find Syl and gang trying to finish the bubble tea. awww! wells, Devika smuggled it and i went off to wait for Aryl ;D His "10 mins" is like 30 half an hour siaaaaa =.= Wells, finally turned up at 11-ish and ate MAC. ;D we talked and talked and eat and eat till 1-something? at 12 I was like, wondering what time baby's exam would finish. haha so sad. Aryl and I were talking bout the Convent-SIGS brawl. haahahha! and about relationships and possesive people. eee, scary man if i have a possesive boyfriend. eeee!
So we took off to go and walk walk around causeway. HAHA. talk talk. I miss him lots man! So happy that after idk how many months of postponing, we finally, got to meet up. I still owe him a B'day present though. gahh. Went up to the cinema to look for movies. HAHA. so funny. Talking about Super Junior and what...? (Korea rocks. fullstop) soo saw baby, and boyfriend met godbro. haha, feedback was very entertaining. ;D this only means one thing, wear your bball shoes, or grow! hahaha -.- awww, didn't mean it though. Went down to send him off, we took stupid pictures. AHHAHA damn stupid i tell yeh. Not uploading. hahaha. Wells, went back up with him -,-! haha then off to cling (WTF) onto boyfriend. heee~ pleasant pleasant day indeed. Oh yesh, gave baby a substitute. hehehehe! not molest :P
xx
baby, ily alot suddenly. ha!
BoA-"I'll eat you up"
*winkwink*
12 May 20091:11 AM
Trying to forget.
Talleyhoos~Today was fun fun fun ;D I love today's test. Maths though, I still hate it! ;D Cuz i spent 1 hr 30 mins to do questions i did know, and the last 30 mins on the few i didn't know. From a gurantee of losing minimum 22 marks, went down to 5. Am pretty proud of myself. shalalala~
Aryl didn't pick up his phone OR reply my texts. Pffft! so I went CWP with my Bangpire, Nat and my consortium (HAHA!) to find no one there. Wanted to get my bands with sylvia, but the place was closed. =.= then decided go have lunch with boyfriend. heho. And Aryl, if your reading this, NEXT TIME YOU BLANJA ME AH! ;D hehoha! =.=
Hung around causeway with boyfriend and gang. Yes, thats how bored i was. Went to library and Thomas got mad suddenly :( aww! ahhh wells, exam stress i guess. Chill out kay dude ;D I felt so extra lah, for some reason. ahh wells. But i managed to get my bands though ;D so i think i've got about 12 on my arm weee~ Questions will arise, but its easier to answer don't you think? ;D
Homed with MAC for lunch. Pretty boring day. Except for the Maths test. Weeee~ I might actually pass! WHOOHOOO! haha, at least I can be happy about something huh, Danial. =.=
"Because I am a fool
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably don’t even know my heart"
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably don’t even know my heart"
Thats how i feel you know. And its not a nice feeling.
You and Syafiq, quite similar.
Maybe THAT is why i liked you in the first place.
See how it feels now.
If you know whats wrong, why didn't you try to fix it first?
Because my heart isn't some stupid toy.
I would have waited.
Its not like i don't know what you went through.
I liked someone in the mist of still not getting over him,
yet i told that person i'm not ready, and it might just be a desperate crush.
so i WAITED and WAITED and more blood came out,
but I'm over him.
If you told me to WAIT, i would have.
I'm sorry lavania screwed the "take it slow" idea
I'm sorry I just went on with the idea.
but it would have been nice for me to know.
All i want is you, I really do.
I'm willing to wait again,
because i want to make it work.
I'm not telling you in your face,
because i want you to read this over and over;
"Its not a crush. I want you. Yes, you. You asked me "I wonder how long it will take for you to get over me when I break your heart" You've broken it,lets see how long it takes ok? I'm stupid enough to give you a second chance, the way i gave it to him. I wonder how people can just live without the guilt of what they're doing. I love you, and that wont change, until it comes out with all the blood i'll lose."
xx
10 May 200911:26 PM
Dentures. =.=!
I WEAR BRACERS.
NOT DENTURES.
Kimakkk.
There is a DISTINCT difference between the two of them ok. =.=
Today is boooring! Gah. Internet restrictions suck big time. I need to get a life. Bah, Danial is online. Yippieee! hooray hooray! =.= Finally sia.
Bracers, not dentures, appointment at 4. What colour should i get? Red&&Black maybe? HAHA ew no, so emo. but, wells, might as well ehs? and I shall get that emo haircut and wear tight clothing and black skinnies. =.=! Ok. no never never.
I hate these people who are renovating my house. They're like at my window. Stupid perverts. And mommy doesn't let me close the curtains? CHEEEESEPIE.
Oh! come to think of it, it isn't THAT boring. Made brownies just now ;D so chewy and niceeee! The best way to fight a lazy afternoon is; Brownies, a glass of Champagne, and a book ;DDD hahaha.
xx
[edit] Something is up with you people and Minah Malaysia's ok. =.= eyerrrrrr.[/edit]
7:32 PM
;D
Morrrrning people!
I want to PROMISE that my blog will be updated often now. ;D
I need a reason to stay alive.
xx
4:28 AM
Motha's Day.
Dear Momma,
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MOMMA!
because today is your special day I didn't tell you what a pain you were to me.
I swear you drive me up the wall 24/7 and all i want is peace from you.
I didn't get you a present because you nagged me because i woke up at 12.45,
I've been getting up at 4am everyday and woke up at 7.45 yesterday.
I needed my sleep. Yet you still nagged.
oh wells, there went your present.
I planned to go to CS with poppa and buy the;
WILD CHERRY™ package worth RM339
from THEBODYSHOP™
So now you know, nagging doesn't help.
LOTSA LOVE,
Alicia
xx
Call me mean/heartless/wdv, I don't really give a shit right now. Just because its mothers day doesn't mean she isn't a bitch. I gave her a hug in the morning and wished her happy mothers day despite her mouth, which said;
"You from being a vet into a actress. Hopeless already lah. Your a bloody disgrace. Does god really hate me enough to give me such a failure of a daughter."
It really does hurt, you know, yet I still listen to you sometimes. I still call you my mom, I still love you alot ok. So what if I like my fashion a lil mix of punk-boho? so what if my bangs are long? so what if i'm not miss perfectionist? Everyone is different. I'm NOT you. Remember that please. If you don't like my room, don't come into it. Its my mothafucking life you bitch.
And you daddy, its MY life. who gives a shit if its your roof? I can just pack my bags and stay with someone in SG. I love you, thats why I stay. But your just so, URGH!
Today was a very interesting day. My hate level for my parents went up. I'm really so tempted to just packing my bags and running away you know. Bitches.
Danial isn't online. Well, he is, but he's away. Gah.
I mugged for maths. I'm such a loser at maths. I can't understand it. I mean, I know the technique, just how the fuck do i mix it with the others and apply it? I fucking HATE HATE HATE MATH. I'm gonna fail on Tuesday. And my dad will see the results. And he will say I never study. If only he knew, if i were to stress myself on math. If only he knew, what would happen. And baby, yeah it happened again, cuz i mugged. sorry.
Trimmed my hair. I don't really like it. :( stupid hair controversy. UGH. I trim, don't like. I don't trim, don't like. WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO LAH FATHER? CUT BOTAK? I"M A GIRL FOR GODS SAKE.
Hand hurts. Gah. I hate piano too. Exams on the 16th of June. Premier cup on the 18th. I need to settle stuff. ARGH. Stress stress stress. Stupid exam period. Stupid school, stupid math.
I like Super Junior. ;D they're so awesome. Also SS501. They're cool too. And I love the song "more than words" the Frankie J version the most. Also "hush hush" by PCD.
" I never needed you to be strong, I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs, I never needed pain, I never needed strain. My love for you was strong enough you should've known. I never needed you for judgement, I never needed you to question what i do. I never asked for help, I take care of myself." Get that in your head mother.
ARGH. SO IRRITATING LAH.
wanna cut. need to cut. I WANT MY FREAKING PENKNIVES! :'(
Give em' back! :(
xx
09 May 20097:39 AM
Prt. 2
I hate it when people take their time to answer something damn important.I hate it even more when people don't see the importance no matter how many times i tell them.
if a breakup is what you want.
I'm gonna wait till the "Danial" on my hand goes away/
I want us to go on.
REAL BAD.
Life sucks when it comes to such tragic endings.
No matter what though, I'll always love you.
THOMAS! I'll still be able to play BB with you right? ;D
xx
5:10 AM
Saturday.
You know what sucks more than waking up at 4am every day?
Waking up at 7.45 on a Saturday.
You know why I woke up at 7.45 on a Saturday?
cuz i had date at 11. ;D
With who?
my babylove of course. XD
Who's my babylove?
;D
Oh, more songs that are true;
Because I am a fool
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably don’t even know my heart
I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no thoughts of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And my tears keep falling
Just looking at your retreating figure
Is happiness to me
Even if you don’t know my feelings
Even if you simply brush me aside
CHORUS:
In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you
I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no memories of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And create my own memories
For me
Love is a beautiful scar
Even when I see your beautiful smile
I cannot smile with you
CHORUS:
In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you
Bye bye never say good bye
Even though I can never have you
I need you
I can’t say a word, I want you
I keep hoping and hoping
In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
Alone once again I cry for you
In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably don’t even know my heart
I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no thoughts of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And my tears keep falling
Just looking at your retreating figure
Is happiness to me
Even if you don’t know my feelings
Even if you simply brush me aside
CHORUS:
In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you
I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no memories of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And create my own memories
For me
Love is a beautiful scar
Even when I see your beautiful smile
I cannot smile with you
CHORUS:
In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you
Bye bye never say good bye
Even though I can never have you
I need you
I can’t say a word, I want you
I keep hoping and hoping
In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
Alone once again I cry for you
In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you
Haha, I can't express how much I love this song.
Korean/Jap bands are so awesome.
Something is up with you, and its hurting me terribly.
I still try to smile, plaster it on my face.
But its only for your sake, because things are happening.
they always have been.
Yet i can't seem to cope this time, and all i want is the truth.
Danial, please.
MGY, thanks ;D
Wells, today was so-so. Woke up at 7.45 to go for my dressage date (HAHA!?!) with Vivaldi of course. So yeahh, dressage was PURE shit. Lunch was interesting. haha, Josh is still orange as ever. HOHO. "superkicks!" HAHAHAHA. k, only some people know what I'm talking about. I couldn't eat my fried rice in peace. Everyone kept staring at me for some reason. Ugh, whatever. Had jumping at 2. There was an oxer! weeee~~ I love Tanja lots. ;D at least someone understands. My plasters had to be removed cuz i got a heat rash. gah! suckyy. You can see this white patch now on my skin. HAHA. I'm Malay again ;D Vivaldi was awesome over jumps. HEHO. I homed only like, 5 mins ago? HAHA. Ate ALOT there. The bill must be scary I swear. Now I've got mengaji. Ugh. Second post coming your way.
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Baby, I need you.
08 May 20096:25 AM
Reden
I like talking. I LOVEEE talking. Saves alot of heartache. ALOT.that reminds me, ALOT isn't appropriate. ok must use "a large amount" ;)
MGY came online. I'm sooo happy. And heart keeps beating faster. Today got from worst to awesome. haha! enjoy enjoy. Malay paper was utter RUBBISH. Like, i was sooo sleepy. Due to lack of sleep from last night. My GayBitch knows why. :( Okay, this semester is like, crap semester. Top 5 in the level is outta my list this year :( AH wells, bad year bad year.
Once upon a time, I cried because of this person. Yes, I cried like alot. My eyes were red the next morning and i had to close them through my whole bus trip. They looked normal by the time I got to school and I managed to plaster a smile on my face. That person didn't even seem to care. And it hurt alot ok. ALOT. Its like, stewpid. If the person you "cared" about suddenly doesn't talk to you.... won't you like try your best to figure out why? boo. Thomas, I need your stupid jokes again.
"u know how he's like when u got into this
from what you've said
he doesn't seem like someone
whom likes to take the initiative in a relationship
or perhaps he doesn't really know what he should do at this moment
so it's not about him lacking passion
don't question him on that, too early for that now
tell him what you need
what he needs to do
to make u feel special"
1) tell me if your in pain
2)show me how much you care
3) let me slowly be yours.
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07 May 20094:44 AM
Simple Stupidity.
for some unkown reason,and i do not want to know,
repeat; DO NOT,
want to know,
somebody is being a bitch.
I don't want this person to be a bitch,
REALLY. REALLY. REALLY.
If you terasa, then thats you.
yes you right there, reading this now.
YOUR THE BITCH THAT'S MAKING ME CRY.
did it sting? if it did, yeah thats you.
purpur is my suddenly loved colour. wedding dress colour. ;) HAHA val.
I hate my mom. She's been shouting the second she entered the house. ugh, shut up. bitch.
And something is up with B okay. like really. ugh, focus.
Exams exams. fuck lah. stupid social life, stupid school life, stupid love life. stupid life life lah kimak. =.= I want exams to be over. I want everything to just stop and go back to the way I want it to be. Call me spoilt, i AM. Got a problem with it? Too BAD. GAH.
Doesn't it hurt when your doing ALL the effort and you feel like you gotta drag that someone. Ah, whatever lah. I've got Malay tmr. Can't wait =.=
No one to go to school with at this rate. I pray nissy will go with me. Cuz you see, things happen, feelings shuffle and change.
Where's MGY when i need him sia =.=
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nobody gonna love me betta,
i must stick with you forever..
pray pray.
although i don't.
2:20 AM
Stewpid.
I hate hate hate exam period.
Its so stewpid.
yes; STEWPID.
ARFG.
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05 May 20096:10 AM
Doomsday.
TOMORROW MYE. AHHHHHHHHHHH!DieDieDieDie.
ah wells, english and malay.
won't die one.
*breathe*
I'm gonna do what I want to do. Cuz its MY life. NOT YOURS. I tell you what concerns you. As long as I'm not screwing up, no need for you to try and rotate the pieces. I know whats wrong and whats right. Isn't that enough? Be happy I don't smoke, drink or do drugs.
STOP CALLING THEM HDB KIDS BECAUSE AT LEAST THEY'RE MORE OPEN.
Who was the one to say "keep flexible. don't be rigid" LOOK WHOS TALKING LAH. I have a life in Singapore unlike YOU. LET ME LIVE IT CAN? Of course i say bad things about you. You tell me to listen when you yourself NEVER ATEMPT TO LISTEN TO ANYTHING I SAY. Nothing wrong with being in Singapore. If you miss me so much, convey it in a better manner. Compared to keeping me cooped up like some kinda bird.
The more you pull, the more I'll run, the STRONGER i get.
basic dressage.
I need to talk to Mr Yiu. Reaaaaaaaaaaaaally badly. I wish mid-years could wait.
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